(Eva Saporito, Columnist, MS News Channel)
ALONE
There
are times I feel so Alone, down especially when my MS and fibromyalgia
acts up at the same time. I feel hopeless. For some reason, I think of
times when I use to dance with my friends hang out at the OBI in NY.
Which is closed now. I use to love Karaoke it was a blast kickboxing and
rollerblading. It makes me smile then I start crying uncontrollably.
I'm so grateful for what I have a amazing son the most precious gift. I
just wish I had more energy to do more. I have learned and managed to
educate him about my condition.
However he is a child he does not always understand. I do still push and try my best.
For
some reason I feel Alone. I can't seem to share what I feel with my
loved ones. I'm told it's just a bad day, let it go that it's okay.
Now this does not happen all the time only when I'm feeling very ill or
super stressed.
I wish I could talk to my better half,
but I feel Alone. I think it's a "I can't fix it thing" so I have to
hold a lot in. I feel like an actress that should have won many Oscars.
Why is it so hard? I'm way over, The why me... I have accepted this
disease. I just wish it would leave me Alone for at least one day.
I'm am grateful I know my condition is mild compared to others. It's how
it's affected my personal life that eats at me inside everyday.
Wow
I'm tearing up. (i.e, I tell my psychiatrist I feel more anxiety) his
answer well if I was in your shoes. I would too. Seriously?
I know I'm not Alone. I have my MS family and some close friends. I do appreciate and love you all.
It feels good to know I am not Alone.
